Gracyn and I have returned from Colorado. A better then 24 hour delay aside, we had a nice trip. Gracie got to see her Dad, and I got to visit with my friend Elyse, do some shopping and see how much her girls had grown. All nice things!
This visit I experienced something I hadn't before though, closure.
John and I have improved our relationship tremendously in two years time. We both realize we've made mistakes, and by this point we've both owned up to and apologized for them. Time and time again I've said all is forgiven and I'm over the heart ache, but now, in addition to that I see what it's all been for.
Looking at Gracie I see a beautiful and brilliant little girl. I see a sweet child who I know will grow into a capable adult, one who without question will leave a positive mark upon this world. Above all, I see the best of John and I. I see that our personalities and appearances blended to make her and she is the most perfect thing that I have ever seen. While I love Brian with all my heart I don't regret a moment of what John and I ever went through because for it we have a beautiful little girl. He and I were never meant to be anything, Gracyn however was meant to be and change everything.
It's a good feeling to know he now sees things this way too. What he thought would totally turn our worlds upside down, instead totally changed mine around and I could never feel anything but gratitude towards him for that. I like the place in things we're at, and the understanding of each other we have grown to have.
